growing up

4 months today and I feel as if he is packing his things to move out. Normally when Shawn gets up to go to work Johnny cuddles with me in bed for a few hours, for the last two mornings he hasn't wanted to cuddle, cried until I layed him next to me, then was asleep in a few seconds. Happy to not be wrapped up with me. Last night we both had a rough night because I was trying desperately to get him to cuddle with me and neither of us got much sleep. I think it may be time for him to start sleeping in his crib all night instead of our room, but I don't want him to. I want to hold him all night every night!!! I had a dream last night that he just started walking. No warnings, just got up and started walking, to get away from me. But he still smiles and has gotten really good with his rice cereal. He opens his mouth and everything. 4 months ago I was just pregnant.